Open Mics

Turns out there are some open mics in Omaha (who knew?) and I will try to make it out there... some time in the future. I really want to get together a tight set... idk why. I really just want to impress people. Thats all I've ever wanted I suppose...

Its open mic, it should be loose, a place to work out the kinks that you can't work out by yourself. But anyone who goes in there with that mindset, and doesn't try his hardest to actually come in with super polished material in order to impress the other musicians is, well, quite an extraordinary human being. That person is a saint and should get a medal.

But I'm not that perfect person, I need validation for the years of work I've been putting into this useless endeavor.

I won't get it.

But I'm a masochist, so I'll put my head into the noose to see if can get any tighter before I pass out.

End of the new year

As 2014 closes, I'm left with one lasting impression: this sucks.

Everything does. Life, work, music... other things.

It is all terrible.

But that is how it is, isn't it?

All life seems to be is preparing for your next step in life. You are always moving, constantly moving towards some end goal, but once you reach that point, you move to the next step. Is this how it always is for everyone or is it just some people? Like, what is the end game?

More importantly, what is my end game?

I've been thinking about this for quite a while. I still want to do something with music, might not have to be a musician per se, but maybe a sound engineer or producer or a reviewer or blogger or fucking something. Cause this is important to me, I've found something I'm finally passionate about, and that I'm sort of good at. And I want to pursue this in any way possible. But there isn't a clear cut way to pursue something, no one has a plan ready and waiting for whatever Joe Asshole wants to come along and become a musician. It is one of those things that can be acquired a million different ways, thats why I think it is attractive to me.

I may have this wrong, but with corporations and other businesses, you come in, work from the bottom up and show your worth and eventually you might become a CEO or something. Of course you can always skip all that with the right connections and talent, but music seems more fluid. You don't have to, well maybe you do. start at the bottom, pay your dues, and maybe fame will find you. Maybe it is like everything else. Scratch that shit.

But it does seem more fluid, like, you can. Idk what I'm trying to say.

Fuck off I'm tired.

BUT, an EP is slowly being built, and it will be called.... something. Maybe Permeate the Membrane! or Crush. I forgot how the timeline was working out on that one. Crush was next I believe.

So, Crush is still in development.

I do really like Dart Lucky for whatever reason. It just, sticks to my brain.

What this is, the future holds.

We (my family) maybe acquiring a house soon.

This means I will be able to get my studio back up and running.

I've done inventory on my equipment, and most of my stuff is shit wrecked.

I'm going to need new stuff. My plan is to acquire an 8 track digital recorder, use it to record and mix shit, then upload it to my... i think its called a DAW software? Whatever. Idk. Idc. Then use that to master, cut, edit all that good stuff.

A looper pedal will also be in the future, as well as a drum pad.

The drumpad will be a better fit for me, because it is more like actual instrumenting instead of just pressing buttons to make drum patterns. It is more hands on and immersive, so I think it will allow me to get a better handle on making drum tracks.

I'm not sure how to explain how my brain works. They say when you can't explain how something works, then you don't understand it well enough. So it goes.

Like, when I can physically do something, my brain interprets it better than if I'm listening to someone tell me about it, or if I'm just building something through software. The actual physical action registers better to my brain, and it feels like I can learn it better that way. That is why I don't think i can use software like fruity loops or anything to make beats, it just doesn't do anything for me. I'd need to actually get turntables and synths and shit to make a beat.

Which is something else I really want to learn how to do: turntablism. That stuff is crazy cool.

one month

and hopefully i'll have the studio set up.

Shit.

Shit.

My recorder broke down. I don't have anyway to record my music until I get my "studio" set up.

Well. Shit.

Nothing new

Got some ideas, like usual. But we are trying to buy a house here sometime. And with that house I will be able to make my own studio, which will hopefully allow me to create some more advanced music.

Hopefully.

I want to try and get more a more ambient, layered sound going. Something like Bon Iver only with more balls.

I love Bon Iver's music, its just so ballless. Like, not punk, but headier folk based ambient music.

Not so much ruminations on lost love and abandoment. but you know, the pseudo-headier stuff that I normally dabble in. Or what I want to dabble in.

Normally its just shit songs about not getting laid.

Yeah.

Anyways

I got ideas, but nothing too solid, yet.

I really want to get a looper to play around with, but it seems like the good ones that will fit my needs are insanely expensive.

Oh well.